I will never write a five star book.
Now, hold your horses, I’m not being negative, or suffering from self-esteem issues, or fishing for compliments—those who know me will already know that. This statement is how I motivate myself to write bigger and better.
Let me explain.
I’m one of those people who has to try harder than most others to be good at anything, even things that seem simple, like throwing and catching a ball, or playing a board game. Because of that, I have to really, really, really want to do something before I’ll put in the tremendous effort/practice/learning it takes for me to be able to do it, and do it well.
When I find those rare gems that speak to me, tell me “you can totally do this”, like archery and writing, I set the standards for what I consider “success” really high. As in, can never reach it, high.
So let me make my statement again, with a caveat.
I will never write a five star book…in my own eyes.
If I allow myself to believe I’ve reached that ultimate place of perfection, that will be the day I stop writing. If it’s always out there in the distance, elusive and ultimately unknown, then there is still more knowledge to be learned, more techniques to be perfected, more pieces of my soul to be chipped off and woven into my stories in new and surprising ways.
It’s the only way I know how to keep pushing myself, to get the books to a point where the reader will feel in their entire body what I want them to feel, and be able to disappear from reality for just a little while into a world I create for them.
That, in the end, is perfection to me.
It’s hard on the psyche sometimes, and the nerves, but it works. And you thought I was just mean to my characters. 🙂
What motivates you to keep writing?